Oh I used to be so happy
I used to know
Just what to do
And what I felt
But as time passed
Where did that go?
I’ve been waiting forever
To have that sense of bliss retrieve
What I have lost and loved and missed
And what I have yet to grieve
I have lived a certain life
Hidden behind walls of fear
Yet I live forever in
A limbo I hold close, dear
It holds me tight as I struggle
Promising much
But I have danced this dance of death and danger
Enough to know it’s never enough
Empty lies and promises
Lay within these walls
And I sit here waiting
In my sorrow of it all
I have waited for forever
For a sorrow I cannot bear
To leave my lungs and depart
Into the clouded air
Release the burden off my shoulders
Make it easier to breathe
For as it has been said before
I need release
I have lived a life
Where all I’ve felt is pain
And I just wish for some respite
That I have yet to gain
There is a gratitude
That’s been waiting in the abyss
To reawaken
Find its place
In the lonely mist
I have waited for forever
To feel that bliss again
But all I’ve done
Is sing and hum
A song of so much, yet simultaneously, nothing
I am a woman of many words
But little action
For I find it easier to hide behind my walls
Than gain any traction
A nuisance I call my own
Bathed in a light only I have shone
Swallowed by the darkness
I have waited for the day
That the light fills my eyes
And all my demons and all my sorrows run away and hide
I crave that sweet relief
That I have searched for years
That I’d forsaken
And had been misplacin’
In replacement for something I thought dear
But I did not expect
No, dear, I did not know
The cost of my actions
Would cause you to go
*inspired by Mary Poppins 2, by adult Michael's song "A Conversation," to his dead wife.
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